Greatest Discovery......& Little about sacrifice.....

What do you think is the greatest Discovery?

If this question is asked to each of us, there would be nearly one crore answer....I remember once a sir saying, it was agriculture...

So it is a matter of Perception. Again remembered the story at office yesterday. Parasivan forwarded a mail with a boy crying, one girl smiling, and one semi smiling, and had named them, Processor, Manager and Team leader. Our BB resend it, rearranging the boy crying to be in middle naming him the Team leader, the one smiling to be the Manager, and the third, processor. The Managers perspective would be still different.

Kali asked Kalidasa: Ask for a wish.

Kalidasa said: Grand me anything, except one thing.

Kali asked: What is that one thing.

Kalidasa said: Dont put me in an unfortunate place where people will not understand me or my poetry.

Each of us on earth has our own task to do. Talents differ, all is well and wisely put.

We need to do our duty with utmost sincerety, work with excellence...If you sweep the street, sweep it so well as no one has done before. Everybody should remember you for that. Roses, bees, never doubt their capacity or ability. Cuckoo is never tired of singing and ants of working.

Its always wise to turn your hobby into business. There should not be conflict between your work life and things you enjoy outside work.

Each of us, can make use of our tremendous capacity, of the brain cells, discover ourself, find out our dormant mind.

The moment you are satisfied and aspire no more, you die. - Pondichery mother. (The most esential thing air)

You aim for the skies only then, you can reach for the stars. The world is reacher for those who aspire to ever and ever reach higher and higher.

Remember:
I Can! I Will ! I Shall!

We Can! We will! We shall!

Having written so much about all this, the noble price, etc....it would be incomplete not to put forth that, all great people may not be rewarded or get awards or noble prices, but they would always be remembered for their gretness, deep down in the hearts..

The greatest example being none other than our Mahatma Gandhi, Vivekananda etc....Moreover, Familys love is indeed lifes greatest blessing.

Speaking about Gandhi, one would always remember:
Truth & Ahimsa,
Simple living & high thinking....

But there is also the 7 sins that he spoke of:
1. Politics without principle.
2. Wealth without work.
3. Commerce without morality.
4.Knowledge without Character.
5.Pleasure without consciousness.
6. Science without humanity.
7. Worship without sacrifice.

This brings me to sacrifice...

Sacrifice is letting go of something that you are holding on to, or are attached to, which gives you pleasure for something bigger that would bring good. Sacrifice brings strength in life. Life without sacrifice is stagnant. Sacrifice gives you the quantum leap. It takes you, to a higher pedestal. Often, people think sacrifice makes life dull and joyless. Infact, it is the sacrifice which makes life worthliving. The amount of sacrifice in your life brings out your magnimity and helps you to move out of misery. A life without sacrifice is nothing. Zeal, enthusiasm, strength and joy are all connected to sacrifice.

This is the reason why, all the greatest persons, including our parents, are all having a story of too many sacrifices behing them.

The beginning and the end seems to be quite contrasting right. But in it is the beauty of life...How beautiful would be a garden, if there was only on kind of flower, or the world, if there was only one colour??

So do let me know what you thing is the greates discovery?? Do put it in the comment...It would be nice to read it...

Budget time....A Reminisce....

Well, I am not going to write about the pros and cons of the present budget....but about the opportunity of being able to attend the beautiful budget session discussion at Lyola College, Nungambukam, Chennai on 1st March 2002 presided by our present finance minister Mr. P. Chidambaram, Mr. Pattabhiram and Mr. T. N. Manoharan. ...Three classic personalities I admire.

And I could speak one to one, with each of them. On asking Chidambaram about the poverty, and what could be done, to reduce the misery of the people on the road side, he said, that now in Inda, there is better growth rate, and poverty has come down from 37% to 26% (In 2002) i.e. 27, crore people. Moreover removing poverty of the downtrodden people is a state subject .. A classic oritor, charismatic personality, indeed a great blessing, and memorable evening to have had this gift, a memory to cherish. Especially being a commercial student, may be they are akin to yesterdays, Kauthilya....

On asking T.N. Manoharan Sir, who soon after was the president of ICAI, for his advise to CA students, he said, Keep trying its, 50% confidence, and 50% hardwork.

And Our Pattabhiram Sir, said he is not a great orator like Chitambaram, nor has he immense knowledge like TN Manoharan, but has immense love for India. He said we ought not to work hard but to work smart...His speeach was more a comparison with Indian Economy, with that of China...But the introduction still echos in my ears.....

I love her, she is loving, she is caring, she is obese, she is old, 55 years, she is my mother India....

Well, I had come to know of this at 4.30 pm, and was in my hostel flat, behind Saint Thom, Mylapore, left the place at 5.00, and reached the spot by 5.30 when, it had already begun, but could be there till the end...at 7.30.

Gitanjali...

Git- Means Song, and Anjali -Means offerings, Thus Gitanjali means song offerings...

Happen to read this last week, having taken the same from Mavalipuram, EMS library....

"The progress of our soul is like a perfect poem,
It has an infinite idea which once realised makes all movements full of meaning and joy.
But if we detach its movements from the ultimate idea, if we do not see the infinite rest and only see the infinite motions,
then existance appears to us a monstrous evil, impetuously rushing towards an unending aimlessness"

Githanjali, Tagores Nobel winning masterpiece was first published in 1912. These immensely touching verses were written in Bengali in 1910, after he lost his father, wife, second daughter and younger son. Later he translated these verses when he set sail for England a third time. He showed the translations to William Rothenstein, who showed it to William Butler Yeats, who wrote the Introduction for the book.

Renowned for its lyrical beauty and spiritua poignancy, Githanjali is a classic in its own right, which won Tagore the Noble prize for literature in 1913.

Being in constant touch with rural like, he was also in touch with the nature. He founded the Visva Bharati University at Shantiniketan.

A renissance icon, Tagore left behind a huge legacy of work. These run into twenty-nine volumes. He died in calcutta in August 1941.

Having studied bits and parts of it in school, my favourate is 11th and 77ths part which says:

Thou art the Brother amongst my brothers, but I heed them not, I divide not my earnings with them, thus sharing my all with thee....


Gitanjali also reminds me of the model Gitanjali Nagpal - who very ambitious, left her home town, and was finally found on the streets in Delhi, without anything.......

The New Economic Policy and The Corporates.....

With the LPG (Libralisation, Privatisation and Globlisation) dont we see a sea change in our economy especially after the New Economic Policy was brought into in 1991......What an idea???

Kudos and thanks to almighty that we have people like Manmohan Singh, Chidambaram, taking care of our affairs.......

Nodoubt still there are strikes, and unrest...that the nationalised banks are being privatised, with increase in competition, only the fittest would be able to survive....Will the bigger fishes eat the smaller ones, and increase poverty?? Hope we will not have to wait and watch that scenario....There is no dirth to the mergers and acquasitions taking place daily. Earlier it was the foreigners only investing in India, now not only that we have FDI's , but there are many Indian corporates investing out....

There is more of security, with increase in insurance business.

Thanks for breaking the barriers, with improvement in communication, and other infrastructure....Travel and Tourism has improved.....

First it was only Tatas and Birlas, and Public Sector or Govt. organisations....Now we have great wealth creators in India like Other than Ratan Tata, Kumara Mangalam Birla, the Ambanis, Software Tycoons like Murthy and Premji, Bios...Kiran Majumdar, Vijay Mallaya, Mittals, Gopinath.......

Unlike China, we are far behind in technology, and technological growth. Hope with increase in the cost, soon the software trend in India would not slow down, and they opt for cheaper destinations outside India. And here is still a bad news, Obama sticks to anti-outsourcing stand. Indeed no one can ''shy away'' from globalisation. But also one has to be very careful while signing agreements and pacts......Especially like those of NTP, WTO, etc....


Finance Ministers then was wondering if they should sanction car industiries in India, or should they make our roads better first. They decided to do the first and felt that sooner the roads would be better, and they hopefully are right.

It was indeed a great news to hear about the latest Car Nano....Since then I was often wondering, that though the Tatas (and then there are news that Bajaj and many other companies are bringing out similar cheaper cars) are producing good locks the key is with Reliance and the like. Reliance has been trying to create a monopoly in most of the industry...with Petroleum in their hand.....

It was a good news to read that was published in The Hindu, and through Guardian Newspapaers Limited Mr. Goodwin sees three stages to a process of change: Converting all autos to diesel which can then runon biofuel, making the step to bioelectric and finally to hydroelectric, meaning cars will run on water........

Will this really happen?? Or is it like the news few years back in India, saying vehicles would run with water??? Let us wait and watch for some more time...It should not be imposible as it has been proved sometimes back that electricity can be produced even from walking......

In Middle East countries where petrols are cheaper than water, ordinary people can afford to have a car, but in country like India, though with the reduction in cost, people would be able to purchase a car..running and maintenance cost, plus the roads are a concern.

Have you ever thought of how much service tax you end up paying always!!!!

Hindi film Industry or Bollywood........

Once upon a time my favourate was the three A's Amithab, then Anil Kapoor, and then Aamir Khan, and among female it was Sreedevi, Rekha and Hema......Then Kajol, and Vidhya ....

It is the days of K's there, first it was Kapoors, now it is Khans.....No wonder Karan Johar and Ekta Kapoor together would name their movie Khan-Dhan.

Indeed a place where many would want to be, Hollywood, Bollywood, Lolywood, or at least Malayalam film industry!! (But not me ha...) There is money, power, fame, anything and everything....

If not then why and what is Ash and Sush doing here???

With lot of fans for Sanju (Ash) in 1992, the mumbai architetural student missed the crown to the Calcutta Girl Sush, which made many in Mumbai sad, but then they were both there making India proud, and raising lot of contraversies and questions, on being crowned Miss Universe (Sushmita) and Miss World (Aishwarya) .....Well it was answer to the questions that they gave that made the difference, and after one year of contract it was over.....And both of them landed in Bollywood...One married into Bachan family and having had a great contravarsial wedding, who receives parcel containing Euro from unknown senders and other adopting a daughter at 24 years, running or atleast being heard of having a ship and shipping business we are going to see another competition over their RaniLakshmi Bhai.....Let see whats going to happen over that.....


There are manythings to learn from them too.....

The friendship fight or cold war between Khan and Bachan...The diplomatic Johar....

Marriages, Divorces and the relations.....

True anybody would envy, touch wood, Madhuri and Meenaksh, they enjoyed all this and still have a cool distant family life.....The south Indian Hema and Sree Devis wedding.....And now this Saif Ali Khan-Kareena-Amrita Sing Drama......

Well these are open news, there are so many Page 3 news....

We have Aamir Khan following the foot steps of Shekar Kapur....And to some extend here too its sunny days for Sons....

There are many people in this industry, most of them unknown to us, who make it what it is today. Many people behind the screen working day and night, others contorlling it from the underworlds, many striving to be there, and the greates number are those like me, spectators.....

My favourate there today is Karan Johar, a great chap indeed.

In his book Brand Names and Product Dynasties, Lessons in retrospect, by Barrie Black Coleman, he says, 'k' is a strong and incisive sort of letter, an expletive consonant. ....that he said for Kodak, but see its true here too....all the movies from K, and then Karan Johar and Kajol!!!

Kathaparayumbol - A Malayalam Movie

It is indeed a great movie to watch. The postures for advertising the movie is a bit misleading...

Story of the movie is a simple, well told one about a village barber,whose childhood friend is now a famous cine actor. By co-incidence this film actor comes to the village for a film shooting and the story turns around that. At the end of the movie everyone will be in a dilemma whether the superstar Mammotty or the family entertainer Srinivasan (Balan) is the hero of this movie.

In the beginning when Balan is in need of money, there is nobody to give him, but when the super star is into their village, all are around him, but he is hesitant to go and meet his old friend, wondering if the super star would still remember him. His basic character does not allow him to do so. But there is this superstar who tells about their friendship, and that the school days are the best part of once life......

I just could not keep away my mind from Johns Amma......

Also at times Srinivasan resembeled my own father....

And the daughter, isnt it nice to see the same girl, who said Ayoo acha pogaley, now saying eniku krithyam ayee fees kodukuna kutty ayial mathi....

Also remembered Godwin, asking Jancy aunty, why did you marry a black man? Why am a dark??

Mammotty speech in the end was though provoking, though there were comments about his cry.

Also there was some resemblence, a bit modern way of the Krishna & Kujelans story.

Yesterday, on my way back from Indira Gandhi Memorial Hospital, meeting Wilson Chettan, Dolly and Darsana asked me if I would accompany them the next day for this movie. Since I am not used to watching malayalam movies out in theater, and weekends means going home, I said No.

But at night Sajeev asked, if I belived in friendship, and if yes, I should watch the movie. Thara too told me the same. So I thought again this week no going home, its afterall not always...Then I got to know it was Srinivasns movie....I liked his Chinthavishteyayea Shyamala very much, and had always felt that it is a must watch movie, for all.....

Morning we didnot get the ticket for it, and again we had to go in the evening, though it was released sometimes back, and there were other movies going on in the next theater of Mohanlal and Dileep, which are comparatively new, but the rush was lesser. Definitely they would have the advantage of people who had come to watch Kathaparayumbol but didnot get the tickets...

One thing is sure, the word of mouth is the best advertisment, which would be delivered, only if the product is really good.

Ghar Ghar Khi Kahani ?? No way......Appu Ettanum Mini Cheechium....

Well this is the story of Appu Ettan and Mini Cheechi, the made for each other couple....from my office....

Mini Cheechi, hyper optimistic, hyper confident person, fair, long hair, anybody would love to have such a wife, but guess a litter over talkative...but thats good, you wont be bored...

And Appu ettan, the perfect husband any women could dream about, ambitious, hardworking, handsome, educated, and qualified, who would be hers, do all the household processing for her, and anything to see that she wont shed her crocodile tears......

Well they cannot be always together in office right..And once I was surprised to hear Appu ettans conversation with other male colleagues of his in office, the Shamikuna Kayutha, Para Sivan, and the big boss....

Para Sivan, a great Sahityakaran asked do you know what does WIFE stand for???

And came the reply Worry Invited For Ever.

They begin by loving all in the family, and gain her husbands heart, by proving herself to be the best.

Then slowly she will start showing how all her inlaws are at fault, and only she is the perfect person in the world, with so much of love and understanding for her husband, who fall in her words and slowly become henpecked, if not at least begin to have a distance from his family....

Once they have children, he has to forget his family, else she will keep reminding him, what all they need to do, for their childrens sake....And he is so engrossed, that he forgets that he too was child once upon a time....

Far away he is busy working for his wife and children, forgetting his parents....And she has to take care of her children, send them to school, do the shopping for her children, husband and parents, visit all the malls and luxrious place for them and their status in the society,....And if there is anything that her inlaws need, its a burden, if at all they come to their house any one, wether it be his parents or siblings, or their children its a disturbance a hinderance. If they sit, they are at fault, if they dont sit, they are at fault....So much so that, if at all once in a while someone of the inlawa says they would be comming home, and they are little late, Mini Cheechi and kids are off to the neighbours house, and if it is her brother or family members, they would call a hundrend times to know why they are late, where have they reached???

And in case her husband wants to be back, she keeps prompting him, and making him realise, the need for him to be away to have more or of her having to take up the job, and finally she did, when he decided he wanted to be at home with his kids, at least for sometime, as they are about to get married, and would soon go away...And why not make all the best use of the available opportunity?? He wanted to spend at least some time in his life with his brilliant,talented and beautiful daughter, and the ambitious, handsome son.

But see Appuettan is having a pefect life, with a palatile house in the heart of the city, an enviable job, for both of them, and an elite club membership. What more do they want...And a bit of secret...who has a perfect married life, but named his daughter, in rememberance of his exgirlfriend, without his wifes knowledge.


For little satisfaction when he had such a loving wife, he needed Martha to flirt around....

Now we fear, if Martha would become a Vartha.....

But life goes on.....

Mini, too is not bad in that front...She has so many fans...

She belives that her loving Son and Daugher would always be with them, but after years all for her daughter-in-inlaws (Again inlaw - you see)fault, the son is no more hers.......And the story continues, daughter too is the same with her laws, well trained by her mother, but after all she is the only person to left to care for her and Appuettan..And our Big B says, the son, would be a Rebel, or may follow the footsteps of his father.

Better to have a life partner than a spouse.Its difficult if there is BP (Bhariya/Bharathavney) Peady.....Moreover if Male is effected, i.e. he becomes henpecked...Isnt it very bad and sad to see some male being a tiger (puli) in front of the world, but rat (elli) in front of his wife??

But now son and son in law, is with a difference, Earlier even if husband would not listen to his wife, she had to adjust, had no other go...now if son/daughter do not listen to their spouse, who is also equal to their counterpart economically, financially and with a brilliant careere, then they are there with their pen to sign the divorce......Thats generation next ....baby......

Anyway, so, my dear future generation, hope you have lesson to learn from the life of Mini Cheechi and Appu Ettan. ...Learn from the mistakes of others you cannot live long enough to make them all yourself and then learn......

Happy Valentines Day.....

The feeling of love is amazing...
To be carried away by your emotions...
To do things with your heart...
Not thinking what is right or wrong...
To let your heart take control over you...
To care for someone more than anything else...
But when your head takes over your hear...
You are confused....

Love is that divine force which will help you
Achieve the impossible....Break the barriers....

To love for the sake of being loved is human,
But to love for the sake of being loving is angelic...

Love is not something only between opposite sexes...
But it is holy, divine...
Undoubtedly the greates known symbol of love today is..
Mother Teresa.....

In Janapana there is a couplet:
Kandu kandaniriku janagala,
Kandilanu Varuthunathum bhavan.....

Where is the time to hate....
When there is so little time to love......

Tis day..and now and always....
Let us motivate and love people and those around us....
One can 'try' to avoid a person, but
what God has created who are we to destoy??
Always the best is to 'RECONCILE'

Friends and Relatives are two sides of the same coin. Both are needed in our life. Few relations on earth never die....Friends come into our life, and God has send us our relatives:

Mother Father
Sisters Brothers
Wife Husband
Daughter Son

And the generations before, after and in connection to them, including inlaws....
It is the duty of the elders to forgive the younger ones, and ofcourse...Child is the father of man......

People come into our life for a reason, season or lifetime....
Well do not know why in the beginning of each year....

This lesson in my life:

2006: January 5th, when I was back from office on my international udankatola, with Naseema of Ditro, fell from it, and it was Derish from that office, who took us to Kakkanad Cooperative Hospital. Though there were so many relatives of mine around Kakanad, nobody even knew of it for two weeks....And when we wanted to repay Deerish.....Alash!!!! The star of the office, had commited suicide....he gave up his life under a train, but why??? Because some girl from their office could not be his!!!! Is this Love?????

Well this day is also the birthday of a person, who had made a fuss of Love, with 8 long years of studying and being married then to his sweet heart, who divorced her withing 3-4 years of their married life, how much did I expect their life to be like http://arunoday.blogspot.com/2006/01/when-you-divorce-me-carry-me-out-in.html

Well then things are not what we want it to be....

Rajesh from Indigo Concepts was about to get married, in a weeks time, engagement with great funfare was all over, and the ......sunday evening, when he was about to cross the road, because of some complaint in his car...he was hit by a vehicle....And thus came his tragic end......

2008: When all were busy with work and the preparations for the celebrations, on 13th Feb. evening at 8.30, there was this guy, from our office, Mr. Binu Paulose, who was just about to have his dinner, in office, but felt like vomiting, at 8:30, colleagues took him to a nearby Sunrise hospital, and before he could reach there, he is no more......

I cannot and do not want to hear about the death of a near and dear one, but then, where there is life, there is death....Death is common to all, and nothing lasts for ever....It is the destination of every life.......

Well who are the real loosers....Colleagues may forget things in a period of time, but there are some souls who will never be able to bear this......

I personally know so many 'MOTHERS' who literally go mad, or are prone to diseases like alsimers, after the death of their children.....

There is a divine bond between Life and Love.....

Life is beautiful, keep it simple and sweet......

How good it would have been, if there was

LOVE LOVE AND ONLY LOVE IN THIS WORLD......

There would be so much of peace, so much of happiness....no quarrels.....

Do not ignore people small or big, under any circumstances. The value of life is measured by the lives it touches....

And what do you think is the purpose of our life???

Purpose of life: Live, Love, Learn, Lead, Leave a Legacy...........

Parents…..

Children begin by obeying their parents,
After a time they judge them,
Rarely if ever do they forgive them……

As children we are always with parents, listen to them, but when we start growing….well the above words says it all….would pray to GOD, that it should not happen to me, at least the third line. And because now I still love them, I thought of putting down all my feelings, so that it would be a reminder for me in the future too…..

Also right from the age of 10 or so, every year used to give some small token as gift for their anniversary which is on the 24th of January. This year could not do so, and therefore thought let this be our gift to them.

They were there every time we cried growing; they jumped with joy, when we first stood up. They send us to the best of schools, cooked our favorite food, brought things for us, instead of themselves during the difficult days. Took us to doctor when we were sick, gave their savings to meet our needs. Gave up their friends and relations, for us and our grand parents, i.e. for their parents….We love and care for you, for all that you’ve done for us thro these years. Hope that we could do the things, the way you do. Thank you God, for given us them. Which indeed is our greatest gift… ‘FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU’. That’s family….

It touches my heart to see people who are deprived of their love, either because God has taken back one of them, or though they are alive, both are not together, either because of ill health, or because of the craze for money, or to earn a lively hood, or because of some misunderstanding….

Two souls with different desires, ambitions, aims, coming together…its indeed an uphill task, for ‘Men are from mars and Women are from Venus.’

To begin with my Achan, he is a very short-tempered, sincere, hardworking and honest person, who cannot simply sit doing nothing, either he has to work, talk or watch TV, if he is not sleeping. He doesn’t think when to speak what and to whom, he would tell anything to anyone, and do not keep any grudge against anyone. He doesn’t care if the other person is interested in listening to his talks. A true man, who had enjoyed all the whims and fancies of life, with lots and lots of courage, to face things as they come, and have seen no person like him, who does not work for money, nor do have a need to save it. His favorite quotes are: time and tide waits for no man, and All for himself and God for all.

To speak about my amma, she was another mom for so many people…. A very simple and down to earth person. She has an especial ability to know the needs of the needy and do things for them. Many people can do things, but very few really has a heart to do it, and she is one of them. She takes up responsibility, understanding it, and not because anyone tells her to do. She loves teaching, and belives that education is a very important thing, and wants every people around to be educated. I remember how she used to teach people people around at kalyan east..Lyla and all to write their names…If not for her, we would not have been what we are today. Even now she is very much interested in learning new things like computer, emailing, sms etc.

Well that is something that keeps a balance here. While she is interested in this, father is interested in driving. Mother is more interested in indoor activity, while father is interested in outdoor works. But both of them believe that, their role in the society is to set right the things at home, and in their immediate family, and if each one in the world would feel so, the world would be a better place to live in.

They keep on doing things, without expecting anything in return. …well for children and parents everyone do, but they do it for those who they think help is needed.

Sincerely owing reasons and responsibilities to you….’ Sorry, for having ever hurt both of you.

Indeed my parents are here because of their parents, i.e. my grandparents…who are the sine co non for us. After my 12th and my sisters 10th, though we had good prospects, in Mumbai, they shifted to kerala, because for them it was their Mother and Motherland, that was dear…My fathers mother was not keeping well then, and we moved to kerala. With their blessings could have a home here at Potta, and my Achamma died here, on May 27th 1997, the English date was exactly the same, by Achachan too had died on May 27th but 1982. My muttachan passed away in March 2001, and since then again humarey pass ‘ma’ hey…Now I can understand the significance of the dialogue in Deewar.Thank you Dad….

Ammuma keeps giving good advises, which many may not like, she is infact a nimisha kavy.....if she had good formal education, she would have been a great writer for sure...though having studied only upto 4th, she is so well versed with the epics, even a bit of English, hindi and tamil....she keeps telling, dont be like Kudhikunikey pakshey, whose action indicates it asking 'Ennolam ponnu undoo Kolagathu....' Two things I have learned from this:
1.What we know is like drops in the ocean, what we have to learn is vast like the sea before...
2.So we should never be proud, or show off, what we have, and infact, Kadikudikugay anangilum mudey kudikanam....

She is the most modern person with her outlooks, who has a good emotional control, inspite of her forgetfulness and ill health......Kudose to you....I guess the presence of an elderly person at home makes a good positive difference, which the present generation fail to understand, and it is becoming a universal fact that people today conside old people at home to be an hinderance....Again remember but not correctly an couplet from Gyanapana: Satthukal shiksheche cholumbool, shatruvey poley krindhikunu chillar....

Speech or talk can make or break the barriers. And that is why my father to break the barrier speaks to all. But there are some, who do not want to break it, and when there are opportunity to break the barrier, tries to prevent it. For that we have airtel…right…..But then tongue weighs next to nothing, and it is difficult to control it right......